These good words from Renita Weems in Listening for God:
Whatever spirituality is, it is not something to be discovered. It is something to be recovered- something you misplace and recover a thousand times in a lifetime. Nor is belief in God, mystery, or prayer something one either possesses or doesn't. Rather, belief is something one tries continually to keep oneself open to, accessible to, or something one continuously refuses to open oneself up to.