Edit- This is a picture of my sweet church family. You may not see any gaps, but a few of my very favorite family members are not in the picture. Of course we can never find a date that works for everyone, but any one of us that doesn’t make it is sorely missed.
I always get a major case of melancholy as we pull away from the retreat. The kids have grown used to me shedding a few tears as we leave the church retreat, as well as when we used to go to Barrren River ever year. Like clockwork, we go. But each time I pull away I am keenly aware of the possibility that it might be the last for any one of us to be there, or for all of us to be there as we are now. A lot can happen in a year. Not all bad things either- I was keenly aware this year of how wounded and sad I was this time last year. I’m also aware that as a family, this is our one “vacation” together each year, and I keep bracing myself for the year when one of my grown kids won’t want to or not be able to come. I will say that this seemingly maudlin perspective also serves to make me appreciate every moment of the times we do have there.
Sooooo I’d like to take my editing tools tonight and photo shop in the friends who weren’t there, and I’d like to have one more year to look forward to.
Add- I went to a session on mandala making this morning and now I really want to add mandala making into my routine.
Appreciate- My sweet DH and kiddos gave me a netbook for my birthday! Yay! It’s so cute. It’s so helpful! I loved being able to skype my mom at the usual time last night, just in a different location.